Did I ever love myself?

As the life is unfolding and the dawn of spiritualism is lighting up the darkness of past; this thought is hitting me again and again; “Did I ever love myself?”

Had I really loved “disciplined me”, I would not struggle every day getting up early in the morning. Is that extra fifteen minutes of sleep of wakeful dreaming a worth?

Had I really loved “the fit me”; I could have sustained atleast one effort may it be swimming, yoga or cycling.

Had I really loved “the healthy me”; I would not eat that extra calories just to satisfy the ever unsatisfied tongue of mine.

Had I loved myself ”the beautiful me”; I would not need expensive creams, make-up or cosmetic procedure.

Had I loved myself ”the smart me”; I would not depend on the ever changing fashion statement. I mean the smarter me would not need the testimony of latest styles.

Had I loved myself “the talented me”; I would not have taken thirty years to discover that I was bestowed with the talent to write.

Had I loved the “soul” within me; the realization of temporary nature of everything around me would have enlightened my senses, mind and intelligence. I would not have experienced the so-called tough times, or sad days, nor would I have hankered for what I do not have or I could not achieve.

Isn’t the journey of loving oneself is in a true sense a real journey to spiritual abode?

Acknowledgement: I express my heartfelt gratitude to the group of enlightened souls called Golok Express,  for bestowing me with the knowledge that I could write this article. Many thanks to the LORD for choosing me as an instrument to spread this knowledge.

Disclaimer- This blog does not promote any religion, faith or sectarian thought. This blog is platform for sharing my journey to spiritualism. I apologize if any of the thought expressed in this blog is against any religious faith or belief.